Jesus in the Eyes of Apostle John

After becoming a Christian for years, it comes to my awareness that there are two main groups of contradictory Bible facts. For example: On one hand, the book of John said that Jesus had clearly told us he was not God. On the other hand, it said that Jesus told us he was God Himself. These conflicting messages had motivated me to research the book of John. I have spent five years studying the book of John trying to understand what the author really wanted to tell us who Jesus was. Apparently, the book actually reveals to us that Lord Jesus Christ was not God but he was only God’s son. As a matter of fact, Lord Jesus Christ had personally told us that because he was only a son of man, God had to give him authority over all flesh and authority to execute judgement before he could judge. God had to give Jesus life in God Himself before he could have life. God had to give Jesus His Words before he could know what they were. Then God the most-high sent and commanded Jesus to c...

Who Jesus was? Was Jesus God-Himself? Was Jesus half man and half God? Was Jesus a man born by a woman like any other human beings? After accepting the fact that we can only be saved if we believe in our savior Lord Jesus Christ for years, the above questions almost throw me into an epileptic fit. If we believe Jesus and yet do not know what and who he was, on what basis we think that we could still have the eternal-life? Such ambiguity no matter how small it is, has greatly disturbed my mind. And for the sake of my faith, it has motivated me to look for an answer from the Bible Book. Obviously all words have their designated meanings. The question is, if I staying within the boundary of the meanings of the word and the complete context as a whole, without injecting my own ideas and thinking twisting the intended meaning of the message, will I be able to derive to what the book had intended to tell me who Jesus was? Indeed, this is the unique reading and rea...